my recent NIGHTMARE!!!!!!

Saya rasa sudah lamanya saya tidak blog....kerana kebelakangan ini banyak pekara telah berlaku...ibu dan ayah telah becerai...dua orang adik saya telah berpindah ke rumah mak cik di KL...ibu pindah ke rumah nenek dan saya pulak terus tinggal di NERAKA ini~ selepas hal seperti ini telah berlaku, NIGHTMARE saya sudahpun bermula~

Keluarga sebelah ibu semuanya memandang rendah kepada saya, termasuk IBUKU sendiri~

sekarang saya tinggal dengan ayah...ayah selalu memarah saya tanpa sebab..kalau ada sebab pun sebab sebab yang tidak masuk akal~ kadang kadang selalu memeras ugut saya..dan selalu kata mahu halau saya keluar...ibu selalu meluahkan perkataan perkataan yang pasti akan memedihkan hati saya.....selalu kata anak seperti ini memang patut mati!! adakah seseorang ibu di dunia ini akan berbuat begitu??? ayah tidak akan memberi duit kepada saya...tetapi ibu bagi~ apa gunanya saya dapat duit daripada ibu??? selalu minta duit untuk makan, mesti kena dengar perkataan perkataan yang sangat berduri dan berbisa dahulu baru dapat...

Saya pun telah membuat keputusan dengan tidak akan meminta duit daripada mereka~ sudah dua minggu saya tidak meminta duit...sudah dua minggu poket saya berlubang~dalam dua minggu ini saya sepatutnya telah mati akibat kelaparan~ nasib baik saya masih ada kawan yang sudi membantu saya...dalam dua hari saya cuma makan sekali sahaja....saya sangat lapar sekarang~ >.< ~ saya cuba cari kerja dalam dua minggu ini tetapi tiada orang mahu angkat part time....semuaya full time... kerana hal ini saya telah pun ponteng sekolah selama satu minggu....

apa yang patut saya buat???

saya ingin mati,tetapi saya tidak berani~

saya ingin meninggalkan tempat yang hodoh ini,

tetapi saya akan mati akibat kelaparan~

apa patut saya buat??

siapa boleh tolong saya??

am i thinking too much?? or.......

so long din find my new ji mui dy...miss her..>.<..aiyah...my fault larr.....always busy working...then stupid retarded phone useless wan...Zzz...always no space for new msgs gehz..damn pek chek!!! anyway, i just viewed your blog....is it me that you mentioned at your post?? you recently got best new friend besides than me?? hmmmph......nope...just me...i think...so i know you are talking bout me..hmmmph...what i've done??? i din't betray you~ everything you told me i just listened and keep it inside my heart..NEVER tell anyone oso~ yes..i admit...you really care me~ i'm very happy because you care me soo much~but i dont feel that i'm proud of it~ i'm just happy...thats all~ and i never pretend anything infront of you!! i'm just being me,myself~ppl told you how bad i am?? what kind of bad?? and why he wanna told you bad things bout me?? maybe he know that me and you very fren??? not many ppl knows me and you soo fren de worr...i don't hope that person is my best friend!!!! oso hoped that person u mentioned in your blog wasn't me!!!!!!!!!! '


you are my best friend~ i will never betray my friends~ best friends lagi la won't betray!!!

~fall for you~ like this song=)

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting. Could it be that we have been this way before? I know you don't think that I am trying; I know you're wearing thin down to the core. But hold your breath Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you Over again. Don't make me change my mind Or I wont live to see another day. I swear it's true, Because a girl like you is impossible to find. You're impossible to find. This is not what I intended. I always swore to you I'd never fall apart. You always thought that I was stronger. I may have failed But I have loved you from the start. Oh but hold your breath Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you Don't make me change my mind Or I wont live to see another day. I swear it's true, Because a girl like you is impossible to find. It's impossible. So breathe in so deep. Breathe me in. I'm yours to keep And hold onto your words Cuz talk is cheap. And remember me tonight When you're asleep.

Thank You, my friends..^__^

All these years, alone

The wind has passed, the rain had gone

There were tears, there were wrongs

Things we hold dear I still recall

If you've had true love, then you would know

There is loneliness, there are goodbyes

There are dreams, always there is you

In my heart

Friends walk this life together

Those days will not return

One word, one life

A lifetime relationship, a cup of wine

With friends you won't be lonely

Lifelong friends, you'd understand

There are wounds, there is pain

Must go our separate ways

Always there is me............

My dear friends...this is for euu guys...no matter what happens in the future, euu still my friend..no matter where euu are, euu still my friend..although we always quarrel,but euu still my friend..although some of euu hated mii, but euu stil my friend..although euu took my girl away, but euu still my friend..sometimes euu will betray mii, euu still my friend..some off euu are not by my side, euu guys still my friends...i know some days we will be seperating..some go overseas..some in college and university..some need to work..or need to take care of their family..that time we wont be seeing each other ady..cuz we all have our own life and family dy..so we must 珍惜 and care each other when we still have time to spend together with..we can only be 1 time friends only..in this life only!! we will NEVER be friends in the second life~i am very happy to be friends with euu guys~ if i've done anything that makes euu guys angry or unhappy..please forgive mii okay?? i jimmy仔 here sincerly apologize to euu~ hope our FRIENDSHIP will last till the day we died!! BEST FRIENDS FOREVER!!!!!!!!!

Friends from KL

Justin Choi
Adeline Phing
Barrath
Jonathan
Mark Andrew
Paul Khoo
Ngan Sher Lie
Fabbie
Amanda
Karin
Nabil
Lai Khai Vern
Kenneth
Clement
Sakura Chong Jia Yin
Cynthia
Katrina Ho
Serena

Beatrice
Reena
Keegan Tan
Andre Soo Fat

Friends i met in Genting

Linda

Nicole(Ah Bao)

Ayumi

Joice(Hello Kitty)

Sue Yee

Mei Ping(Apple)

Vivian Hui wen(Barbie Doll)

Ivy

June

Kelly Cheang

Mickey Mouse

Miko Leong

Rebecca

Pei Ying

Yuki

Ah Man

Ah Hua

Grace

Junrong(Ah Wing)

JunXian(Ah Boy)

YY

Ivan

Mah Lao

Danny Jun

Eugene(Padini)

Jimmie Lim(Dai Lou)

Jia Li(Kari)

Lim Wayne

Ah B

Ah Bi

Season(Ah Soon)

Wen Jian

Alvin

Fan Zhe

Sam(Mah Lao)

Chee Seng(Kapten)

Wong Soo Yee

Jason

Amy

Hasrul

Bob

Khir

Panjang

Ah Yang

Yang Yang

Edison(Mr.K)

Janice

Ah Kit

Ah Lun

Ah Lim

Ah Yin

Ah Yip

Ah Fat

Ah Tai

Miao Jun

Pei Yee

Chooi Yee

Lovin

Man(Shuffle mate)

Friends from Taiping

Gary Tew

Wilson Loo

Jeff Chai

Randy Teh

Eason Ong

Victoren

Khoo

Jason Lim

Jonathan Moo

Ah Leong

See Keat

Kalok仔

Benjamin Teh

Ah Hock

Teng

Dixon

Alex Teoh

Toong

Wei Zhong

Sky

Jia Loong

Ben Ye

Justin Goh

Darren Boo

Saw Ee Hao

Ah Foo

Yong Pin

Zheng Jia

See Chung

An Ling

Ah Kei

Winson Kwang

Vincent Loh

Ah Di

Ah Kit

AH Mun

Ah Xian

Zhi Han

Alice Ooi Yean san(Plastic)

Alice Ong May Ying(Princess)

Fannie Lee Sook Fang

Jenny Chong Yen Nee(Rabbit)

Sry for those i din't list their names out...Cuz daddy nagging..=.=''..

Thnx to all my friends that care me so much...and always help me when i'm in trouble...will be there for me when i need help...always be my listener when i need to share things with...i LOVE euu guys!!!

i feel what she feels..T_T

hmmmmph....i thought already midnite...just 12.32am nia horr...where should i start leh??

owh ya!! Okay..now already a.m so i should say is yesterday morning i straight go ts n.....SKATE!!! kakakaz....so happy cuz learned new skill liao...kakakaz....then around 8.34pm i had dinner with family..after that i go home wanna bath gehz...then mummy said give brother n cousin bath first wo...then okie luu~ while waiting, me lying down on the bed n sms with her..then as usual, tertidur liao..Zzz.....when i woke up the time already 12am..then i saw 6 missed calls..6 msgs..lol...she is sad...need someone to accompany but no 1 wants to...so she find me...but i tertidur pulak!! me so stupid larr....she is really sad n moody recently..i can feel it...she is facing many problems recently...friendship problems....her frens are like not so close with her dy..oso din care bout her when she need someone to share things to..and she cant forget her 1st ex...she is sad when she saw new pics of her ex with another girl...>.<..summore exam cumming liao but she dint study at all!! this is what she is having ryte now...STRESS!!!!!nobody wants to chat with her(not included me la)..she told me she wanna released those stress by finding a place n shout out everything and cry...but i know it is impossible...cuz her parents will never let her out in the middle of the night...i really wanted to help her...but dunnoe how...so the best way is to make her happy n accompany her when she is lonely...thats all i can do...sry...T__T..

baddy bad luck...>.<...

yesterday me n ah khoon planned to go roller skate today...when i woke up+haedache..i thought 9pm nia...then brush teeth n get ready..when i look at my phone the time already 2.34pm!! AIYAH LATE LIAO!! then my bike masuk kilang(service) summore...so i wait luu~while waiting..i sms with my friends luu~around 3.30pm my bike returned home..^^ happy~ i staight go ts...but raining..=.='' so i wait...AGAIN!!...Zzz...around 5pm the rain FINALLY stops~ then i went ts...when i was goin to reach sumthin bad bad happened....my bike died..ZZZ...so stupid la....plus raining summore!!! that me really like rynn's song....WO ZAI LING YU ZHONG!!! called my friend...luckly he came...then he helped me repair...around 6pm then gao tim dy...then i wanna text her wan...tell her that my bike okie liao...but no credit!!=.=!! (This Time Is Not Line Problem Or Inbox Full Ahh...Is No Credit Okay??) haha~ what a bad bad luck i'm having today...Zzz///hope 2molo will be better..xD

so suprise!!

Yesterday she called me in the middle of the night...i was like soo suprised!!! its been sooo long since she find me...we talked on the phone frm 12am till 4-5am...we chat bout whats happening around us...then she said she break with yy dy...cuz he played her feelings...zz...damn tat yy!! then i said March de holiday i goin back kl...then i wanna stay at her house..just like last time..^^..but she said kenot..>.<..cuz her parents moving to kl soon...aiyo...then she said she stay at my house during holidays(Kl de house la)..so syiok la when she told me that!!xD then we also talked bout our ambitions..^^..she said she wanna be pramugari for 1 years plus...cuz just wanna testing nia...lol..then she wanna open shops like acewin...lol...i said i work for her lo..she said if i work at her shop go layanan istimewa worr....kakaz...xD since we both oso like to go clubbing..so i said i open a club lo...when we wanna go clubbing then go her shop choose cloths..then when clubbing time i treat her beer n stuff..kakakaz..what a perfect ambition we have..^_^..after that we talked bout our sweet memories @ genting.............at that time i dunnoe why my tears starting to dropped..T_T..maybe i too miss her liao gua...i beh tahan dy straight away cut off the phone n go sleep!! Zzz...cuz she know that i've cried n she is oso crying at the same time...i dont want her to sad...thats why...hmmmph....i miss euu!!!! hope to c euu soon~!!!! T__T